The Waiting

I’m one of the most impatient patients on Earth. Waiting for scan or biopsy results drives me to drink- responsibly, Mom. (Although I do some of that in normal times as well, because life has taught me that total sobriety is way overrated.) The longest couple of weeks of my life were from the day I first learned of some CT scan results that showed a large mass next to my spine to the day the docs told me the mass was very likely not a melanoma tumor. Up to then, I’d thought that waiting for bar exam results was pretty excrutiating; but little did I know how much harder waiting would be when the stakes just might be your life. Yikes. With empathy to all who are now living in a state of waiting, here’s a new version of Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers’ “The Waiting”…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMyCa35_mOg


Oh Lordy don't it feel like time’s stopped right now
Don't it feel like something from a dream
Yeah I've never known nothing quite like this
Don't it feel like tonight might never quite end
Patients we know better than to try and pretend
No one coulda ever told us 'bout this
I said yeah yeah

The waiting is the hardest part
Every day you see one more card
You take it on faith, you take it to the heart
The waiting is the hardest part

Well yeah I might have made a couple doctors insane
All it ever got me was pain
Then there were those that made me feel good
But never as good as I'm feeling right now
Cancer you're the only thing that's ever known how
To make me wanna live like I wanna live now
I said yeah yeah

The waiting is the hardest part
Every day you get one more yard
You take it on faith, you take it to the heart
The waiting is the hardest part

Oh don't let it kill you readers, don't let it get to you
Don't let it kill you readers, don't let it get to you
I'll be your singin' heart, I'll be your bloggin' fool
Don't let this go too far
Don't let it get to you